Happy and sad all in one

Hmm should I do happy first or sad? I think I will do sad first, because when you are done reading the happy you should be happy? Right?
  Okay so driving home from getting the kids from school. We go the "long way." Everytime we go the long way we pass my Uncle house. This wouldn't be a big deal. Except, my Unle Puppy, is no longer with us. He passed in Sept. Labor Day weekend. It just now today hit me that he is gone. Some of you know the story, but I will retell it for those that don't. My Uncle Puppy was a great guy had his own painting business. He was funny and a smart ass. He missed my wedding I was mad. I hadnt seen him in a while, even tho I lived 5 mins from him. Lets bring you up to speed. I get a call from my dad while I was at work, which was odd my dad usually calls me when he gets home. So it was like I don't know 3 or so. I'm trying to remember if it was June or July. Had to be June, cause I was still getting the boy off the bus. (This was my old job) So my dad goes "I have something to tell you. Uncle Puppy has cancer. He has had it for awhile, but he didn't want me to tell anyone." I say "no wonder he didn't make the wedding." I know prolly not the smartest thing to say, but it started to make sense. After talking to my dad for a few mins, he told me the cancer was in his:
Bones
Prostate
Panceris (sp)
Lungs
One other spot, I can't remember right now.
So a few days later I went to visit him, showing him my wedding pictures. He enjoyed them, but he didn't last very long. He was in and out of it from the meds he was on. So I left. Fast foward till about August. I get a call saying Uncle Puppy is in the hopsital, he fell out of bed. He had a nice cut about his eye brow. But this point he was whacky. Talking in things that don't make sense. Found out that he had a urinary tract infection too. Made him a bit whacky! I went and saw him. He was sleeping and I didn't want to wake him, or wait for him to wake up. I left. I never went back to see him. I had so much in my life going on at the time. I was going to court for my brother, I was trying to take care of my brother. My life got in the way of going to see him. Plus I don't think a part of me wanted to believe he was dying.
Fast forward to Labor Day weekend. I go to the State Fair to see Rascal Flatts with some friends and stay out in Cuse! We make a rest stop. I get on facebook via my phone, just to check it. I see a post from my Aunt (not Uncle Puppy's wife) saying something of the lines of "Our brother Bob went home today. He is no longer here." Those weren't the words, but you get the idea. I go to my friend Michele "Does this sound like my Uncle died?" She goes "yes it does." I quick call my dad, I ask if everything is alright. He tells me no, Uncle Puppy passed away. He asks me how did I find out. I told him Aunt Jan posted on facebook. OMG he was pissed! He wanted to tell us first before anything was posted. I texted all my friends and told them. They were all there for me.
I cried the whole way home. About an hour. It was the longest ride ever! I get home, Ryan is there waiting for me. I take a quick nap I was tired from all the fun and all the crying over the past 2 days. We leave for my dads, and it was just a great time. Family was there, we were talking about Uncle Puppy, and my grandparents and all the funny stories. I layed in to my aunt tho. She said she was sorry, she goes I just wanted people in FL to know. I'm still very upset at her for doing that. She could of waited till all of us knew. On wards. My Uncle made it very clear that he didn't want calling hours or a funeral. So that means I didn't get to say good bye. I missed it by an hour!!
I was nervous to go away at all, I had a feeling something was going to happen. But I didn't want to miss the concert. I needed a girls night. I was starting a new job after that, and school too. I wanted to go out and have fun. Do I blame myself for not being there. No, I know that thats what my Uncle would of wanted me to do. Do I hurt that I wasn't there yes! Like I said this all hit me today that he wasn't here anymore. I cried all the way home today. Good thing the kids didn't notice it. I miss my Uncle like crazy. I always will. I'm sad I didn't get my final good bye, I have no closure. It's something I will have to work on, on my own. I hope today after it finally hit me, I will be able to find it.

Now on the happy part of my lovely blog. I hope you guys made it this far with out needing a tissue!!

PACKERS WON!!! It was such a great game! Some lame calls, but all in all a good game!! I had so much fun last night. My taco dip didn't go as fast as it usually does lol. So I'm eating some now. I love it. I can't wait for Sept, for football season all over again. Hopefully the Titans will make it to the superbowl! You know would be awesome if the Bills did!! Hahah wishful thinking right there!!

Thank you for reading. I only have like 2 more sad blog posts that I know of. I will try to make the rest happy and goofy for you.
Staci