Missing Matty

I met this amazing kid ohhh about 8-9 years ago. Though a AOL chat room. His name was Matt. He was way younger than me. Well about 4-5 years younger. He was cute and funny, and fun to be around. We hit it off, and became great friends. As time went on we grew apart, he was dating a girl that was insane, no lie. I was dating a couple guys (not at the sametime!). Our lives just got crazy and we didn't see each other all the time like we used too, but we did chat every day. Fast forward a few yrs. I got a job at a call center and remembering he worked there too! We meet up after my training, and hung out at work. He took me out in his new car, he was proud of it. So we saw each other all the time again. We had all the same friends. I went to a party he was there. I was a bit drunk. Shocker I know. Well I told him that I had a crush on him and blah blah. He was like yea whatever and took another girl home with him. I was pissed. He texted e the next morning saying nothing happened, and tried to talk to me at work, I was just like whatever. Few months went by, I started talking to him again. I missed him. Feb. 3 comes along. It was a Sunday, SuperBowl Sunday, I remember that because I was at work and I was pissed I had to work on a Superbowl day! I get a call from my used to be bestfriend/ roomate. She goes something has happened to Matt, he is dead. I lose it at my desk, I do to my super, I go Matt C. just died. She lets me go. Remember we worked at the sameplace, so just about everyone knew him. I call Ryan, I come home. I'm in tears, upset and angry at him. We find out a few days later he OD on ohh I can't remember now. He went out the night before and just got messed up. Oh I should say to, that he found out not to long before this he had a son. So he isn't leaving me, his friends behind, but his son that will never know him now.
This was 3 yrs ago. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. Miss him. I want to tell hi everything that is going on in my life, he was my go to guy! I know he is watching down over me, but its not the same. I miss him so much. He was taken far to soon. I think of him more on this day and on his birthday 9/11!
I remember going to his funeral and thinking it was all a joke, that he was playing a joke on us. I was like ok Matt you can come out of hiding now. Anytime. I'm waiting for you. But he didn't. It was weeks before I final realized he was gone, forever. I still can't believe it to this day. He was a great friend, one I truely miss! I love you Matty!!
If you know anyone addicted to anything or if you are, please get the help you need. I don't want you to lose a great friend or family member, or ever yourself, like I have. Its not fun.