Not sure what to say today. Nothing has been going on. Its yucky and rainy today, so can't do much outside. I want summer to get here so bad. But living in NY it seems so far away! I can't wait for May, we are going to Cape Cod!! I love it there!! If it wasn't on the water, and more up north, I would love to live there lol! I can't stand the cold.
I guess I better kick start my diet too! So I can look somewhat cute in shorts and stuff lol!! So if you have tips, and pointers, I am all ears! I will have to start my Zumba and Wii Active again. I know eating right, but other tips would be great, I cant do "diet" pills cause of my heart.
Well thats all I got for now!
Later.
Staci
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Grandma
Today is one of many sad days in my life.
This date 4 years ago I lost someone so close to me, my Grandmother. She was the rock in my family. Once she left us, my family hasn't been the same. We don't see each other as much, we just went on with our lives.
A bit about my grandma. She should of died in Oct of 06. I came home from work past midnight, since I worked till midnight at the time. She was on the couch and could barely breath, I called 911, EMT comes, and load her in the bus. One of the EMT's comes back in and said, they are taking her to Strong Hospital for better care. At that time, I didn't know she went into a whirl in of bad events. I get to the hospital before she did, go figure right. I am waiting in the waiting room, I finaly get to go back, and I see her with tubes in her nose and mouth. She was tied down to the bed. At that moment I called my dad, he comes rushing to the hospital. I need to back track, she was an DRN, since the EMT's didn't know they tubed her. I couldn't look at her, it hurt to much. I finally went home and got some rest. Called off of work for a few days. That night the Dr said if she were to of pulled out the tube, she would of died. I couldn't make that decion, since I wasn't her power of attn. I did go to the hopsital, everyday, she was transfered to ICU for a few days, I couldn't go in and see her. Seeing her in the ER was bad enough. I finally saw her the day before she came home. I was in tears, she told me to stop it so I did.
Moving on to the next part of the story.
She decided to move in with my Uncle after all this happened. Well I moved out, since she was going to be moving. I moved out in Dec. The last time I saw her was in Feb for my birthday! Which I think I went to my dads like the 25th or so. She couldn't make it, so I went to her. She wasn't looking good, but I just didn't say anything. Fast foward to the 3 of March. My sister and her Husband were over for dinner. Joelle's phone rings, she starts crying, saying "I knew I should of seen her, and gone over there." She gets off the phone and said Grandma had died. I fall to the floor I'm crying so hard, I can't breathe. We rush to her house, she hadn't moved yet. The cops are there, my dad, my cousin, family out of town are there as well. I go running inside, I had to see it to believe it!! It was true, she was on the floor, in the living room, she looked like she was sleeping. She had been gone for atleast 24 hours. My cousin found her. She had a dog at the time, my heart broke for her too. Luckily the girl next door said she would love to take Abby. So she went to a good home.
I haven't fully come to terms of not living with her at the time she died. I moved out so quick, when I knew I should of stayed. I thought my family blamed her dying alone on me, since I wasn't there anymore. I blamed myself for not being there when she died. She was all alone. I don't know how she could of felt. Knowing her, she would of said "Oh shit" as she went down. They ruled it as a heart attack. So I prolly couldn't of done anything, I will never know. Still doesn't take away the pain I feel everyday.
Now on the lady I remember and will cherish.
She was fiesty, a bitch, a great friend, and mother, grandmother, great grandmother, aunt, sister, wife. She was also very set in her ways. She was stubborn, caring, loving. She loved everyone. Well one person she didn't. Thats another blog post when the time is right. She welcomed everyone into her home. She hardly got angry. I know she was lonely when my gramps passed away. They were married for over 50 yrs. Kinda strange, my gramps passed 3/13/97, my gram passed 3/3/07. I feel it was planned that way. No matter what I do in my life, my gram is never far from my thoughts. I had red carnations in my bouques at my wedding, a red bead on my necklace, in honor of my grandmother.
She was my world, she will continue to be till the day I die.
Parts of me, are her. I am a bitch, I am stubborn, fiesty, I try to love everyone. I have learned so much from her, with her love, her actions. She is who I want to be, in a person.
Bernice D. George you are my hero, you are my everything. I love you and miss you till the day I die!!
Sorry if this made you cry, but this is what I feel on this day every year, I know it will get easier, but right now, I don't know when.
This date 4 years ago I lost someone so close to me, my Grandmother. She was the rock in my family. Once she left us, my family hasn't been the same. We don't see each other as much, we just went on with our lives.
A bit about my grandma. She should of died in Oct of 06. I came home from work past midnight, since I worked till midnight at the time. She was on the couch and could barely breath, I called 911, EMT comes, and load her in the bus. One of the EMT's comes back in and said, they are taking her to Strong Hospital for better care. At that time, I didn't know she went into a whirl in of bad events. I get to the hospital before she did, go figure right. I am waiting in the waiting room, I finaly get to go back, and I see her with tubes in her nose and mouth. She was tied down to the bed. At that moment I called my dad, he comes rushing to the hospital. I need to back track, she was an DRN, since the EMT's didn't know they tubed her. I couldn't look at her, it hurt to much. I finally went home and got some rest. Called off of work for a few days. That night the Dr said if she were to of pulled out the tube, she would of died. I couldn't make that decion, since I wasn't her power of attn. I did go to the hopsital, everyday, she was transfered to ICU for a few days, I couldn't go in and see her. Seeing her in the ER was bad enough. I finally saw her the day before she came home. I was in tears, she told me to stop it so I did.
Moving on to the next part of the story.
She decided to move in with my Uncle after all this happened. Well I moved out, since she was going to be moving. I moved out in Dec. The last time I saw her was in Feb for my birthday! Which I think I went to my dads like the 25th or so. She couldn't make it, so I went to her. She wasn't looking good, but I just didn't say anything. Fast foward to the 3 of March. My sister and her Husband were over for dinner. Joelle's phone rings, she starts crying, saying "I knew I should of seen her, and gone over there." She gets off the phone and said Grandma had died. I fall to the floor I'm crying so hard, I can't breathe. We rush to her house, she hadn't moved yet. The cops are there, my dad, my cousin, family out of town are there as well. I go running inside, I had to see it to believe it!! It was true, she was on the floor, in the living room, she looked like she was sleeping. She had been gone for atleast 24 hours. My cousin found her. She had a dog at the time, my heart broke for her too. Luckily the girl next door said she would love to take Abby. So she went to a good home.
I haven't fully come to terms of not living with her at the time she died. I moved out so quick, when I knew I should of stayed. I thought my family blamed her dying alone on me, since I wasn't there anymore. I blamed myself for not being there when she died. She was all alone. I don't know how she could of felt. Knowing her, she would of said "Oh shit" as she went down. They ruled it as a heart attack. So I prolly couldn't of done anything, I will never know. Still doesn't take away the pain I feel everyday.
Now on the lady I remember and will cherish.
She was fiesty, a bitch, a great friend, and mother, grandmother, great grandmother, aunt, sister, wife. She was also very set in her ways. She was stubborn, caring, loving. She loved everyone. Well one person she didn't. Thats another blog post when the time is right. She welcomed everyone into her home. She hardly got angry. I know she was lonely when my gramps passed away. They were married for over 50 yrs. Kinda strange, my gramps passed 3/13/97, my gram passed 3/3/07. I feel it was planned that way. No matter what I do in my life, my gram is never far from my thoughts. I had red carnations in my bouques at my wedding, a red bead on my necklace, in honor of my grandmother.
She was my world, she will continue to be till the day I die.
Parts of me, are her. I am a bitch, I am stubborn, fiesty, I try to love everyone. I have learned so much from her, with her love, her actions. She is who I want to be, in a person.
Bernice D. George you are my hero, you are my everything. I love you and miss you till the day I die!!
Sorry if this made you cry, but this is what I feel on this day every year, I know it will get easier, but right now, I don't know when.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Dang 3 days?
I can't believe I haven't been here in over 3 days! Sorry peeps!! I wish I could say I was busy, but I wasn't lol!! I guess I just forgot!
Nothing has been going on anyways. Just been working. I can't wait 2 more work days then I am off for a week! Nothing going on then either lol.
Well I won't bore you anymore. I hope to post something fun soon!
Oh you al have to see Just Go With It! So cute!
Bye for now
Staci
Nothing has been going on anyways. Just been working. I can't wait 2 more work days then I am off for a week! Nothing going on then either lol.
Well I won't bore you anymore. I hope to post something fun soon!
Oh you al have to see Just Go With It! So cute!
Bye for now
Staci
Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentines Day! (and what I did yesterday lol)
Happy Valentines Day everyone! I can't wait for tonight. Beef roast, acorn squash, and baby red taters. Three different cheese cakes for dessert. They are mini ones lol! Maybe some romantic hot tubbing tonight too! I hope everyone has a good one.
Yesterday was a great and fun day! Went to the Winter Fest! Went to the chili cook off! Some were really good, some sucked! I was so full! There was about 9 to taste! And they were good servings too! Missed the Polar Plunge. We always forget about it lol. After we did that, I went and got my hair cut. Its a bit shorter then I wanted, but I hope now it will grow super fast! Then I went shopping. I went to Ulta, got a few things I needed. Then it was off to my favorite store, Target!!! I got 3 birthday presents. For the kids I watch, tomorrow they will be 5! One of my bestfriends Michele, she turned 31. Shhh don't tell anyone. Also got Ryan his Vday gift. Came home and had dinner, watched Greys, then hot tubbed it up lol. Watched the Grammy's. Then it was off to bed.
Well thats my blog for today! Tomorrows shall be boring since I have nothing goin on. No work, not nothing.
Until tomorrow...
Staci
Yesterday was a great and fun day! Went to the Winter Fest! Went to the chili cook off! Some were really good, some sucked! I was so full! There was about 9 to taste! And they were good servings too! Missed the Polar Plunge. We always forget about it lol. After we did that, I went and got my hair cut. Its a bit shorter then I wanted, but I hope now it will grow super fast! Then I went shopping. I went to Ulta, got a few things I needed. Then it was off to my favorite store, Target!!! I got 3 birthday presents. For the kids I watch, tomorrow they will be 5! One of my bestfriends Michele, she turned 31. Shhh don't tell anyone. Also got Ryan his Vday gift. Came home and had dinner, watched Greys, then hot tubbed it up lol. Watched the Grammy's. Then it was off to bed.
Well thats my blog for today! Tomorrows shall be boring since I have nothing goin on. No work, not nothing.
Until tomorrow...
Staci
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Outraged!
Again red cause I am outraged by what I found out yesterday! A kid I went to school with was charge with kiddy porn! He had been doing it for 7 yrs. All online. When I say I went to school with him, we were in the same class. Not like he was in a different class. We had classes together. He was a EMT worked on Mercy Flight. How can someone you know be that "type" of person? I'm confused and sickened. Grnated I haven't talked to him in years. But he still lives in my home town, never left. I would run into him every now and then when I would visit other friends there. I hope he gets everthing thrown at him. 20 yrs in prison, 250 grand fine, or both! I don't think that is enough! Some of the kids were young as 8! I feel he needs to be there for life! Cut off his man hood! I don't care if I know him or not. He is distusting!! My aunt's husband is in jail for being a child preditor, and in my opinin he isn't serving enough time! All these so called men, should be there for life and have thier man hood cut off! Or given a pill to make their man hood limp forever!! If my baby (when I have one) is ever molested, or viewed for sexual proposes, you best believe I will do damage control on the guy! I don't care, they are babies and they are no longer after what has been done to them.
I can go on and on about this. But I will leave it at this. I'm so pissed.
Here is the link
http://www.whec.com/news/stories/S1969757.shtml?cat=565
Untill tomorrow.
Staci
I can go on and on about this. But I will leave it at this. I'm so pissed.
Here is the link
http://www.whec.com/news/stories/S1969757.shtml?cat=565
Untill tomorrow.
Staci
Friday, February 11, 2011
UGH
Okay so I had this funny had to be there post. But somethings came to my attention today. I'm uber tired to I will address them all tomorrow. Most of you know all of it. Most don't. So untill tomorrow my dear followers.
Staci
Staci
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Penis Tree's?!?!?
So today is a better than yesterday! Thank goodness! I got to leave work 2 hours early. I came home and did nothing lol. I will do everything over the weekend. I have to baby sit Saturday night, then might go out for my girlfriends bday. All depends when I get done baby sitting.
So penis tree's I say? I was giving the kids thier lunch and the boy goes, "I want to plant a penis tree that doesn't pee." They were eating peas with lunch, but I'm not sure how he thought of penis tree's. I dont know where he comes with anything he says honestly. I get them from school the first words out of his mouth were "Did you know an elephant is scared of a little mouse?" I say "yes." He goes "how can something so big be scared of something so small?" I say "that's just the way it is sometimes." They will be 5 next week. I don't think well I know they don't fully grasp things yet. I just laugh at the all the funny things they say.
I'm trying to stay positive on finding a job. I feel like I'm in a rut. I think it's because I want out of my other job so bad. It wouldn't be so bad if the dad wasn't the way he is. But he is who he is. Ehh I only have to put up with for a bit longer, then he can go back to being the guy across the street.
So thats my post for right now! Kinda boring. Those moments you took reading this, you won't ever get back! Muahahahah!
Staci
So penis tree's I say? I was giving the kids thier lunch and the boy goes, "I want to plant a penis tree that doesn't pee." They were eating peas with lunch, but I'm not sure how he thought of penis tree's. I dont know where he comes with anything he says honestly. I get them from school the first words out of his mouth were "Did you know an elephant is scared of a little mouse?" I say "yes." He goes "how can something so big be scared of something so small?" I say "that's just the way it is sometimes." They will be 5 next week. I don't think well I know they don't fully grasp things yet. I just laugh at the all the funny things they say.
I'm trying to stay positive on finding a job. I feel like I'm in a rut. I think it's because I want out of my other job so bad. It wouldn't be so bad if the dad wasn't the way he is. But he is who he is. Ehh I only have to put up with for a bit longer, then he can go back to being the guy across the street.
So thats my post for right now! Kinda boring. Those moments you took reading this, you won't ever get back! Muahahahah!
Staci
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